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Thursday, October 27, 2011

The Omnipresent Power

Is there a God?
This is a question I kept asking myself all these years, and I got my answer...... but wait a minute! to know the answer you need to experience the process I went through to get my answer.
It all started on a Sunday of 1989, when the sun was shining brightly and the winds were blowing mightily - jokes apart, when my mother got the bright idea of fasting while I was waiting inside her to come out and get a break in this world! Her religious rituals took toll on me and lo and behold I was born within the next hour. In this entire episode my father proved a knight in shining armor for me, and continued to be so till he was alive.
Those first nine years of my life were the best when I could do whatever I wanted to, when I could behave the way I wanted to (without being bothered what the next person might think)- in short Be Myself! but then suddenly as a nine year old girl I was expected to understand what life is all about and what this world is all about. Seeing my mother struggle day in and day out to support a family of four and alongside battling a deadly disease I realized life indeed is not bed of roses and I better stand on my feet as soon as possible or at the least try being a little mature. It was only a matter of six more years for me to come in terms with what life has to offer. My mother died fighting cancer but this was an eyeopener for me.
My parents taught me the "Never Say Die" spirit. Even when my father was neck deep in debt, he would be thinking of new ways to make his business work, letting me have the best things in life without making  me feel the strain of shrinking finances. And my mother, though not as optimistic, would give all she could to the best of her abilities but such materialism failed in front of her will power to fight and live a dignified quality life.
Now you must be wondering where does God figure in this! Well the truth is, it was all God's doing. He is the creator, the sustainer and the destroyer.Had it not been for God's presence I wouldn't have had such a dramatic birth where my father scooped my mother in his arms and rushed to the hospital to begin with. At the time of my parent's deaths, it was as if, God had enveloped me, protecting me and  not letting me get affected by what people had to say. Though tough, yet these two decades of my life taught me the most valuable lessons of life. God made sure that I experience the most difficult situations there and then but never allowing the mirth and fun to give a miss to my life. Wherever the life took me this omnipresent power accompanied me  helping me to overcome the gravest of grave situations and in process teaching me to live life freely with sense of responsibility. Hence whenever someone asks
Is there a God?
(I say)




Yes, There is.


(I'll uncover the layers of my life here slowly and steadily) Will see you soon here. Until then -Take care!

10 comments:

gaurav said...

Yes there is god . While I and you cant see it, Let me attempt and describe it, Let me first give it a name, or may be even before that, Is god a Lady or a Man. May be for me its a Lady and lets try and give her a name, how about Kumud. She is about 5'3, with sharp eye, she drives a fiat, she is calm and collected, she teaches in a school , she has a whole world of willpower and determination, her eyes are always trying to find an answer, she is one of the bravest woman i have seen all my life, I saw god , Yes I did....and I am full of tears as I write this...

Samaira said...

Apurva this blog brought back a lot of memories... Beautifully written... keep it up...

Ashvarya said...

love u gal...gud job ,u've written it with so much feelings that it has to work...
n surely GOD is thr..hez alwayz thr protecting me...every tym i begin loosing faith in him he comes out with something unexpected n my belief in him jzt strengthens....

The View From Here said...

dear I loved the emotions u ve captured. I am proud of u. Can't wait to know more through u.

Ruchi said...

You really poured your heart out there! and it moved me, its really got me thinking that somewhere..in the corner of my heart I think I do believe in God.Once I get a clear answer to my question you will be the first one to know.Thanks to get me thinking.

Vidushi said...

Dear Apurva...i tremendously appreciate both the writer of this blog and the girl who went thru this... am happy and blessed to have known u and seen u and been with u when u went thru this, because believe me or not, till date whnever i come across a prob in life, i think of u and how u fought it all... beautifully written blog...am sure God is thr :)

tan said...

nice work :)

hail positivity

Nathaniel Valthaty said...

Hi Apurva,

Great to see that you've started off on a blogging journey with a post on God.

Good work, you've written it well. I'm a fan now.

kaleidoscope said...

AP
fantastic work dear,loved it. keep me posted with your great creative work. :)

Apurva Pandey said...

Thank you so much guys. You guys keep me motivated :-)